my blissful getaway______

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

This past few days were definately worth blogging for. but the typical me was too deep in daze n haze. well, im here, arent i? better get to work. let me seee...

Friday(29/12/06). My last day in HSBC. urs truely came early on tt supposedly gd day. i had slpt late the night b4 but thanks to Ragina's wake up call on my hp, i took my butt off my bed in no time at all. got ready pretty fast i must say. with all my stuff pre-packed, all set n ready to go to work.... for the last time.
nothing cld stop the plan.

1)pull out the plastic bag, containing the gift.
2)calmly waltz into office.
3)act blur, with headphones n put the gift on her table.

everything was going nicely till her mentor decided to be in office early. cldnt believe my eyes when i saw her there. alone with other rows empty except for her. for a moment, i had plan B going on in my head. impesonate a deliver boy n pass the gift to her, not forgetting to say, "thanks for passing it to Selenge. n also no peeking." guess it didnt happen. too risky i thought.
It was abt 11:35am. i had to get help n Ragina did a 2nd favour for me. such a gd fren she is.
anw, when she was passing her the gift, i was standing near the printer to collect my work, which had a clear view of the scene. but i didnt stayed long to look. i just took a glimpse once in a short while. there was a bit of commotion at her place. apparently, she showed them to her colleagues, giggling away, possibly wondering who the hell this Unpredictable Guy really is.

from what Ragina told me, it didnt sound actually like gd news. so i tot tt aft passing her the last piece b4 going off, wld make the situation more on a brighter side.
6pm. n the farewell was on. Sally was 1st to speak. followed by Hasnah. n den me. we each had our short thanks n gdbyes. i hv the clip taken at tt moment but damn the file is too big to be uploaded. anw it was memorable. wish i cld say further but im still in it; the mood just wont leave me even aft 4 days. the saddest part?

i didnt get to give the last piece to her. not to mention missed the chance of taking a picture of her. yeah. it just keeps piling up on me. =[

Saturday(30/12/06). gift exchange with GB gang. everybody was there. even Lenny's sisters. i really like the gift i bought for Suchitra. carefully thought of n meaningful. its actually a music box that plays La Vi En Rose when u twirl the cute lil handle.

Sunday(31/12/06). Hari Raya Haji. so pathetic of me. woke up at 1pm. i didnt go the prayer. what's worst? stuck at home all day. hey. n its my 1st Countdown outing. i gotta say i havent gone for any. so since Bob n the guys asked along, why not huh? im not the kind who wld miss a great fun.
the fireworks were amazing. too bad i didnt hv a camera with me. wld hv taken a picture of Esplanade. the river was covered with lighted baloons of some sort. n the colour changes too. one of the best things ive seen. brilliant idea whoever thought of that.
Esplanade, without any doubt at all, was flooded with humans. some mindless ones if i might add. do i hv to justify that? You readers shld noe wat i mean. Singapore aint actually a nice community. majority yes. but definately quite a load of crappy ppl too. maybe tis isnt a gd time to say much abt it.
er. the band tt was playing rite aft the fireworks caught my ears. coincidentally they were playing songs tt r revolving ard my heart nowadays. heart-felt, warm, simple n melodic. just the way it is.
hm. n thru out the early morning, we strolled all along Orchard. till 6+. 1st train home. restless but kind of satisfied.

Monday(1/12/06). Home the whole day. hahahahhaha =D

Today? Not much. jamming is always fun. its been my best escape. my output. its a something we all wanna do to release ourselves off anger, pain, worry or express our emotions whatever we r feeling inside. our true self unleashed. Most Americans have sex.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:56 p.m.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

hey. this is me, starting to type after a nice but rather short usual late night shower n my legs r cold.
i dont remember the last time my legs were at the point of giving up on me. it nearly did today.

as if soccer in the morning ain't enough to the trick, i went jamming. but hey. it wasnt that bad really. im immune to those 2 back to back. done it all the time.
well i guess luck wasn't doign me a favor on this faithful day. Christmas Eve. i didnt see it coming at all. really. didnt expect Orchard to be worst than Geylang during fasting months. but its true. its true. hm. can't blame me for not going out on Christmas seasons. i tried recalling last yr's 24th Dec. i cant. perhaps it was just a nose-digging day then.

This is one of life's cruelty. the day tt im about to be undone, i had to walk from Wisma, B1[just below Orchard Mrt] thru the underpass to get to Taka. just to go thru another underpass leading to Lucky Plaza. out of Lucky Plaza to walk to CK Tang. n Finally, another underpass, to Orchard Mrt. terrific. wat a predicament.
Just to enlighten myself, its a gd thing i realised tt im not a christmas person. but i cant lie to anyone tt i dont feel anything abt Christmas. one thing i respect abt christmas, besides the many bad points, is the idea of sharing and giving... with your loved ones, close ones n THE one. it's heart-warming. but not if knowing for a fact tt she's with her one, doing what i can only imagine rite now as the most complete feeling anyone can ever feel in their life. to me least.

*moment of stoney silence*

she.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:50 p.m.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

It's raining. but strangely there're sunrays on my window. well, when i looked out my window n up the sky, it was such a great sight. half of the sky is occupied by the sun while the other is by dark clouds. never fails to take my breath away. don't you agree?

One thing u shld noe abt life is that it's not measured by the number of breathes u took but rather the number of times it took ur breath away. when was the last time that happened to u?
u walk on the street n this special something really made u go "whooa". hm. it doesnt hv to be verbally but most importantly it rattles ur nerves. like a goosebump. n then sooner or later, u'll find yourself inspired n refreshed. wat u don't realise is tt u are undergoing some kind of change, away from your usual day-to-day activities. my advise?

grab it n treasure it. explore it. have fun. never stop surprising yourself. do whatever you want. feel free to be entirely stupid. best of all. my classic n the one i held on to since my puberty. k im kidding. not puberty. tt was the time im still wearing shorts to sch n not knowing wat homework to do for every class.

Follow Your Heart.

Be a jackass in love. Love. yes Love. Especially Love. R u in love?

tell me.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

04:10 p.m.

Tuesday, December 5, 2006

Great. I've broken my own late coming record this morning. but hey it's not something to be proud of aight. it goes to show that ur fren rite here by the name of Amir is prone to get himself into deep, deep shit.

At least today it wasn't my fault. really. i guess abt 6/11 S'poreans were affected by the untimedly mrt accident. man.. such commotions are rare to come. i hv to admit i'm new to this. the morning train ppl were crowding ard the stationed officers, creating a fuss. but it was the LED sign which says "Distruption in train service from Sembawang to Yio Chu Kang" that caught my eye initially. so i kinda joined the commotion n managed to ask the officer what was the matter. well, from the way he answered me, it didnt sound a big of a deal.
anw it felt refreshing to hv taken the bus again after 2 months of mrt. 187 from wld inter to bukit panjang transfer to take 190 used to be my route to work.
n coincidentally met Alex at Bukit Panjang. we nearly got into a cab aft 7-8 buses left with sardine-packed predicaments. we didnt, of coz. n because of that, we reached office at 10. n that, ladies and gentleman, is the record.

what a morning.

Yesterday when i was abt to leave the office, she was too. she's near the door while i was still abt 15 metres away. instead of running aft her, i steadily breeze walked to the door which i tot didnt make a difference. i was wrong. when i came out, she's nowhere at sight. rushed downstairs n waited at the exit.....
all was lost.

it didnt take me long to pluck up courage to ask her to lunch this morning. quite confident. bt came up short when she came to my place n apologised for she'll be going wif frens. though i preached its alright, i know myself tt i was thinking abt it the whole afternoon. can't deny.

i've taken positivity seriously for many months now. n im proud of myself for being able to live by it in any situation. but......... just these.. when it comes to her....... i cldnt find any positivity of not being able to c her when... my heart wants to the most.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:37 p.m.

Sunday, December 3, 2006

Oh boy. just look at the time. in a couple of mins, tts the end of ur wkend, folks. n im beginning to doubt ppl saying time flies. allow me to correct that..... time is TELEPORTING us!
Seriously speaking, im in no mind state to talk any sense at all. i just realised tt this afternoon.

My schedule today is soccer @ 5pm. so waking up this morning, 1st thing on my head was to go to Queensway SC n buy a new pair of boots. well, i didnt feel like playing today but just had to.
later on, while killing time, another fren of mine called, wanting company to go Heeren. he persuaded wif the reason being going NS soon so plz do him this favour b4 he does. aft much tot, i balanced out my priorities n decided to cancel soccer for his sake.
so there i was on the train, feeling kinda hard to inform my[soccer] frens tt i wont be able to make it. but eventually i did for formality.let me quote.....[although it was in malay]

"plz forgive me, Am. i cldnt make it to soccer later due to some matters i hv to attend to. do send my regards to the boys. till the next meeting. Peace be upon u."

n check out the reply...

"Its ok.... btw the game was yesterday....."

.......... my mind hanged n subsequently crashed. but thank God it took abt a min to reboot.

can u imagine wat my face wld look like at that moment? damn. i looked at my inbox where i kept the soccer details n it stated "2nd Dec, 5pm". n den my mind recalled when my mouse was hovering the time on the system tray tis morning, which flashed "Sunday, December 03, 2006".
voila.... tts official... ive lost my mind. but it didnt end there. oh, noo. it got me consoling myself... til i missed Commonwealth. n had to turn back. i nearly threw myself on the tracks..... shld hv.

even yesterday, i felt uneasy n hv tis really uncool vibe all over my body. nothing seems to go smooth. simply said tt my mind n body wasnt communicating. my instincts went haywire. n u noe.... the more i think of why, the more i understood. turns out tt "it" has been on my mind the whole time. right up there. no where else. like a process, clogging up the task manager.

She.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:25 p.m.

Monday, November 27, 2006

4 months. easy to type it out but not easy to recall it out. but a good saying wld tell me not to worry abt it at all. what's past is past, look back at them n while u r at it, learn from the bad b4 throwing em away n kp the good in ur heart. as of nw, i cant possibly list em all down. but i'm sorry if there's ppl ard who visits this forsaken blog often n sees no entry for 4 months.

Here's an update on myself. do u noe im currently a contract employee at HSBC @ Dhoby Branch? uhuh. been doing it for 2 months. u noe.... i like it there. like my 2nd family. Card Ops. well, im left wif 4 weeks there b4 my contract expires n i'll be preparing for NS on 11 Jan. kinda looking forward to it. err.... *thinking wat else*...

i'm well if tts wat u r thinking of asking. im fine n dandy. yup. just tt these nights r my undoing. where my heart wakes up n cries like a baby, not wanting to be lonely. n i'll be always be there to feed it.... with soothing music. talked to it n saying things like "Be patient. someday..... someday. she will come. Hv faith".

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

08:24 p.m.

Monday, July 31, 2006

I dont watch tv often nowadays. wait. not nowadays. been months and months. i dont sit on my couch and slack at that idiot box anymore. well, maybe once in... a blue moon. i usually watch wrestling. n soccer. the recent one is World Cup. Sg Idol is also in the shortlist. yup. other than that, u cant find me slogging away with the silver screen.

what a good laughter i had in Psychology class today. thx to Caleb's group presentation on their product. a blanket. i got to hand it to them. the ad was nice. like a real commercial. no vox, just pure viewing. but its whack at the same time. Charlene kept laughing n making fun of it. sure got me tickled too. but i felt a lil bad. terrible, man. i mean wat if they misinterprete our commotion, thinking tt we were laughing at their possible hard work. in actually fact we were only laughing at how freaky Caleb looked when the front part showed him, stroking the girl's cheek. we were just having good clean fun, spoofing them... tts all. haha.

since i was young, ive been getting from alot of people that i look so like my dad. its only today tt i saw it with my own 2 eyes.
spooky~

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

10:55 p.m.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Just had my late shower. Naseef was at my place since 6pm. one thing led to another. ha. u noe guys stuff. i like to share my stuff with my fellow brotherhood. im not much of a cool and interesting guy but i try my best.
showed him my colection of bullshit. stupid videos, in-things and watever hoo-haa. and i always hv a neck watching Eurotrip when it gets bored exploring my pc. tt show is whack. seriously. go and grab a copy of it. trust me. exclude the rated parts, it'd still tickle u one way or another.

"oh hoo... holy cow.. this isnt where i parked my car"

Eyed Hafiizah at CWP earlier this evening. was with a guy. a fren. at least tts what she claims he is. havent got many chance to go out with her. only once. one pathetic time. perhaps its not my luck. my timing sucks. i dunno.

hmm... i wonder hw many times he get to go out with her? =/

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

12:17 a.m.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

10 days is a long time to be away. guess i just ran out of things to say. well, actually tts not entirely true. i'm lazy as hell sometimes. anw, pardon me aight. =)
My my... alot has happened this past few days. wonder if can recall. lets start wif last Sat...

Saturday(08/07). soccer in the morn. very few ppl. really sux. but still get to sweat. i guess tts the whole point. n tiring after tt, had to rush home just to rest for a jamming later in the evening with Verdicollide.
we nearly deafened ourselves. the guitars were so loud tt i cld feel it piercing thru my eardrums. ouuuwwW. at nite, we watched a gig at Gas Haus. a reggae one. tremendous. sigh. i really hate to tell ya the next few things. so im gonna go really fast. ermmmm........ go clarke quay.ate dinner. did something for the first time. watch soccer. took cab home. felt like shit. slept.

Sunday nite was World Cup. went to watch it at Joel's house. n the next morn, i woke up n went home as i got sch. tuesday went off very fast.

last nite was terrific. Joel got 2 tickets to catch Singapore Idols show live at Caldecott. The Spectaculars. did u guys watch it?
nah. u cant see me. we were at the left corner where the camera nvr zoom at ever.
alot of shouting n cheering. not to mention the jeers for the crude comments from the judgers. n the teenagers behind us kept on laughing whenever Jacintha came on screen. amused by her over-sized jugs. haha.
its a good thing we drove there. Joel drove. woo. what a nice time.

Today? good God. i cant think of anything nice about today. except for when i was sitting at the Plaza, alone. supposedly i waited for lecture at 6. it was 4pm. i took out my lec note n started revising abit to kill time. to my right were a few girls n guys. probably a whole click. chatting away. i didnt bother to eve drop at all. n to my left, i cldnt really make out who it was. all i noe was it was a girl. pretty or not pretty, slim or.... not slim, chinese or malay o indian. i just didnt bother at all, i swear. was more focused on my own being. yeap. n my eyes cldnt help wonder about when the ram was full of students strolling down. enjoying the angels if i cld spot em.
i began to sit cross legged. might look uncivilised bt wat the heck. my butt complained.
thing is ive been noticing the girl to my left. its like for a whole 10 mins, she was totally still. all of a sudden, she turned to me n....

girl: hey. erm, can i borrow ur hp. i wanna call my fren. i......(bla bla bla i cldnt hear wat she was saying)
me: sure. *smiled* *took out my hp in my tight pockets*...
girl: *talked on the phone*...
me: *hung up* here. thank u.
me:*smiled*... u're welcome.
girl:so... err.. ur name?
me: Amir
girl: oh.. Amir. im Maggie..
....*shook hands*
Maggie: ok. take care..
me: cya ard *smiled*.

*looked at my phone*....
me:(dammit. y didnt u leave ur number on my phone?)

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:17 p.m.

Monday, July 3, 2006

damn. my lil bro is snoring beside me now. wat an ugly sight. hope i can slp later on.

Know what? i was late for psychology class today. well, not really THAT late. in fact, i was nearly THAT late.
when i arrived at Wlds inter, i looked at the last berth where 168 is. there was a bus so i gave it a chase just to realise tt it was only 187. for a moment, i felt like a dunce. but listen to this. in that split sec, i scanned on 168's queue n saw there was none. n still at tt split second, my brain analysed n said "ok, u r a goner. it must hv left a few secs ago. loser". n miraculously, in tt very same split sec, my eye caught sight of a double decker red bus stalling a few metres away from 168's berth. n when i look up at the back of the bus, it showed "168".

bare with me. please

probably still in that very sec or a few milisecond over, i ran for the bus, got on it, tapped and saw a commotion btwn the bus driver and a chinese looking girl whom i nearly kissed coz apparently, she was the reason the bus stopped. but well, it turned out she's a malay when she joins her mum and lil brother to complain abt her expired exlink or something.
u noe what tt means, dont u?
its Fate. things happen for a reason. maybe she might be dreading abt her ezlink but lil did she noe is tt its just a lil something tt has to happen in order for me to be early for psychology.... or shld i say less late. so my advise is.. the next time shit happens to u, always remember that it happens for a reason n possibly it benefits others in a way. yeah it might sound cruel but tts life aint it? positivity =)

got a msg from Kam saying tt Eddy has a lung problem. naturally, u wld think in a worst case scenario which i did too. but he's fine. said to hv bronchitis. a minor one i suppose.
seems like most of the guys who booked out for the 1st time contracted some sort of cough. like raj, he came back the other day for graduation, still recovering from a 39.7 degrees high fever. n said he had to drip. terrible. n YC, who also had fever, cant stop coughing when we went out for a movie. same goes to Mac. poor lads....... WHAT SICK? doWn 20, recruit. chey.... hahaha.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:06 p.m.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Last night was bad. i got home with a sprained ankle... at least i think so it is. its not often i get injuries from kicking my fav game but today i guess i cldnt avoid tt.
Sharul(is this the correction spelling to his name?) wanted to ram one home for the team. so being the superhero enthusiast tt i've always hoped of becoming, i blocked off his menacingly hardknock with my right foot and the next thing u know, the ball flew off in safety. end up, i limped for a few mins in the game. well, at 1st i tot it was nothing stretches cant do. i felt fine for a while. it was aft i sat down to rest when the pain started to creep in again.

argh. ouch. oww

i dont know what the hell i was thinking but i didnt want to rest up early. was still online at 2am, knowing tt i hv to be up at 7am.
eventually i did turn in at 2:30am. so heavenly it was initially. n den my fat lil feline decided to disturb my well-needed rest. kp 'meow'ing at my face. as usual, i wld get up reluctantly to let it out of my room. wat a pain in the rear when it didnt want to get out aft tt. nvm. its ok. so i jumped back to slp. approximately a few mins later, it irritated me again. only tis time it finally went out n gave me a peace of mind. but the shit was nvr over for me. it just keeps piling up. my ankle undone me utterly. its like all of a sudden the pain crept thru n it was indescripably extruciating, ladies and gentlemen. imagine being terribly slpy but yet u cant slp... fathom that predicament. hell.

which led to coming to lab late this morning. not tt late though. im nt sure which was which - lack of slp or boring lecturer? - made me nod off now n then. was really annoying. i swear.

Bizen AGM. Wilber sounded like Elvis. chey dey la, president. a pleasant event overall. n wat's an agm without the YaaaammMMmm seeeEEEEnnnNGG !!!

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:36 p.m.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

ouch. finger injury. its a small cut. really tiny but it sores out my pointy. i drummed and my finger clipped against the sides of the snare. kinda slowed me down a lil but nevertheless i continued. n u noe wat..... it hit again. the same spot and the same rolling part. so annoyed. n den it became like a phobia. gotta check the percussion spacings next time around.

are u into oldies? all of a sudden i started downloading some. namely a few like Abba, Beatles, Bon Jovi etc. but in my ears rite now is B.J Thomas's Raindrops Falling on My Head. cute song. the tune is so simple and melodic. very good for cheering up situations.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:52 p.m.

Friday, June 23, 2006

Jamming wasnt tt good tonight. i played like a toy monkey with plastic drums. well, cant blame. not becoz the songs we chose to play were fast-paced and hard but my arms were aching from yesterday's workout i had. they really are aching. i swear. to a point where my sticks flew off my grip during play. damn... kinda embarassing. ah. i dont need any justification for tt. i know myself. i suck today for a reason.
man i sound arrogant. haha. come on. im joking. its not like im perfect everytime we jammed. i learned that its alright to cork up at times. u cant do anything about it. it just happens. don't waste time feeling low about it. laugh about it instead. believe in yourself.

motivational =P

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:30 p.m.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

*took a sip of water.... thinking wat to type*

cant think with my toe nails crying out pain to me. yeap.. since sunday's game. felt fine aft a few days of recuperating. but today seems like i made it worst. i can see blood in the nails already. ergh. scary. wldnt want it to happen like 5 yrs ago. my boots were too tight that it squeezed the life out of my toe nails. each time i kicked, i screamed in pain. well, as soon as the game's over, i knew i screwed my nails up.... big time.
by the time i reached home, they looked digusting. blood clot inside with water. alrite.. this is getting too long. to sum it up, my left toe nail burst out blood n pas when i peel it open while my right turned green aft a week. n yup... i peeled off both. it took 1-2 months to grow back full toe nails.
man... now i hope it wont happen again.

pardon me. i tend to blurt out rubbish nowadays. wat to do... life is mundane sometimes. n tt sometimes is now. haha.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

10:48 p.m.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

A day spent with Verdicollide. does the name sound funny or lame?
i think not n i hope not too. in fact, i think its cool.
coming up with a band name is hard though nowadays, u hear all sorts weird of names. kinda opened up to all the possibilities of band names. believe me its a wide range if ur creativity is there.

Creativity. the word im focusing myself on. its fun when u hv ways to expand ur mind. u can do anything. like how im inspired to improve on my drum beats. earlier when we jammed, i felt different. its like i hv a better connection with my drums. trying to pull some stunts by Chad Sexton from 311. damn that guy is THE man. someday, im gonna be able to play like him. i promise u.
anw, i bought new drumsticks. 3A wood tip. thanks Kit Fan for it. u're the best =)

my sibs r at my aunt's place. so i hv the room to myself this few days. power!
argh. my legs r still cramp from yesterday's soccer. guess haven't had enough rest.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:48 p.m.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

oh man.... not again. thought i told myself not to blog at this sorta hour. n it's suppose to be about Sat, not Sun. =(.... sigh. typically me to repeat the same mistakes over n over again. *slaps own face*..... wake up, Amir. wake up. stop rotting.

Anw, had soccer this morn'. my poor pair of shoes is still torn from the last time i played. no time to fix it. so thanks to ardi, i got to wear his, which he gladly lend it to me as he got a new pair. a Ronaldinho Tiempo Gold. a fine pair of sneakers. n i wore his Nike 2. felt comfortable at 1st. but little do i know, i was up for a big self-disappointment later. guess wat? ... for a long time i haven't got this but today, my toe nail decided to fail me.... both of them!
it was really unbelievable. like i always say, this is one of life's cruel predicaments. n last nite i cldnt get a sound sleep coz of anticipation. coz i was so happy those slow pokes finally organise a soccer meeting. just cldnt wait to get my hands on a ball... or shld i say my legs. its an itch that keeps building up like mold on a spoilt bread. and look wat happened..... injury *tch*
so annoyed.

my craziness came again while at home alone. adrenaline of choice is 311. they r simply the best band ive known. im not talking about killer leads, slashing rhythm or powerful bass. well, i nvr say anything about the drums. but tts besides the point. its incredible the way they carry themselves in music industry. i can let u hear just one song from them and i can almost 100% guarantee you'll shake your head or storm your foot, following the beat. seriously, anything i cld say about them rite now is an understatement... pronto!.
so i spent my whole afternoon till evening, grooving with them. oh in case you're still wondering about the drummings, it'll blow your mind in a sec hearing it. trust me =)

*soul search*... what wld u do if u miss someone? im not saying ur bf/gf. but rather someone whom u noe recently. n u can daringly say that the both of u got close enough up to a point whereby the 2 of u chats online often or always talks on the fone or watever u 2 did together. as much as it happens everyday, when they r not ard on the next, u feel stuck and ur head starts to blank. den u'll start asking urself "wat's wrong with me? am i sick?", signaling a sign of without-someone kind of thing. u tried to deny but the truth is ur heart noes the truth n that is u miss him/her.
perhaps a day or 2 or possibly 3 or unnoticibly a week is fine. but face it. more than that, u grow more and more fonder of that someone. all u really want is to just c her/him once more....

wat wld u do in this kind of situation?

P.S please do post ur thoughts on my tagboard. thank u =)

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

01:28 a.m.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Been a long time since i gone crazy at home. Loud music from my speakers and you'll see me singing along to whatever song that happens to be playing. Sometimes i wonder what my neighbours think whenever they heard me.
"i hope he turns dumb one day.... my freaking ears r KILLING me."
yea... probably some sort of that.

Good jamming today. great work out. perspire quite alot. and that pesky kid is getting on my nerve. which kid?
the son of the jamming studio auntie. as if his mum's voice is not annoying enough, he has to act like Denise the Menace. but i think he's way more F-ed up than the latter.
the moment i stepped into the studio, he was already armed with telcom powder in hand and threatened to smack at me. which he did, of coz, with totally no remorse. well, its a good thing its ME. imagine it was someone like Fat Joe or my fren, Mac, he'll be pancake in a sec. oh... ya. speaking of Mac, wat's up bro? heard from Raj that u booked out with him today. peace man. haha.

soccer later on. better get some good shut eye. argh. i really shld update at the rite time in the future. keep blogging at this hour. such a confusion btwn days.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

02:38 a.m.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Ok. finally the game's done. England pulled it off late against Trinidad&Tobacco. my step dad was cursing the whole time, on England's pathetic attempts on goals. According to him, Lampard had so many chances before Crouch's head on goal.i'll translate abit wat he said...
"hah. Like this they play, they expect to win? wait till they meet Brazil. they'll be trembling"...
but thanks to Gerrard's finishing winner, he compensate on England's faith to hv a chance in the competition.

i cld have blogged abit earlier but was busy playing PS2 with my bro. hah. he keeps losing to me and still proclaims himself as expert. pure naive.

ermm. played pool with ardi at Lot 1. called me while i was still sleeping..... at noon. hey... come on. i slpt late last nite, watching Germany Vs Poland. speaking of which, i sat thru the entire match. at least i tot it was entire. anw, b4 i swtiched my tv off, the scoreboard showed 0-0 at the 90th min. so i gave up on it and turned in. and to my disbelief, ardi showed me the newpaper he bought, with the front page on German's cruel win over Poland. they scored at the 91th min. imagine that. i must hv missed the goal by a few secs. dammit.
wat can i say? ... this is football. the game's not over until the ref blows it off. now tts lucid.

Enough said. im worried abt my left eye. its swollen. but on wat cause?....
looks like i hv to put on glasses everywhere i go now. ppl'll think im a blind teenager. k.... tts a gd excuse for stepping in the ladies. haha. relax. im joking.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

02:38 a.m.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Its not everyday you would see me with temper. well, not like last time where i would fire off at my frens. its true.
back in sec sch days, my temper was terrible. especially when it comes to soccer. If anybody doesnt play to the rite tempo, i would flare up like a over boiled kettle. i remember once we were just having a nice afternoon game at one portion of the field in sch. YJ was complaining like a wuss. i cldnt recall clearly what happened. all i noe was tt i got so pissed and shouted "F*** you la". n aft tt, he was feeling way uncool. bet his mood for soccer fell short coz of it. but he deserved it. i swear. if u were there, u wld hv done the exact same thing..... well, maybe not exactly. probably u wld give him a wegdy or something.

And today is one of those days my temper jackpot got hit. one thing u shld noe abt me. i despise ppl with no guts. if its a guy, better yet call him ball-LESS. the least he cld do was call me n ask me to do it for him. guess wat... he didnt n dare to tell us its confirmed. cant imagine anybody as dumb as that. even my fren Jeremy, who we delared him as DUMBFUCK, can do a better job than him.
its a good thing he called me when i was outside on the streets. but thanks to that, because i was in a pissed mood, i started to think that some Singaporeans are really unthoughtful. in buses, blocking other passengers' pathway. during boardings, deliberately walk slow i don't know why the heck for. i mean just get on board and be courteous to other passengers; pick a seat and be quick about it.

anw, thanks to all these ppl, i have something to blog today. that's positivity from me.

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:42 p.m.

Monday, June 12, 2006

must be wondering y's there another entry on this date. coz late last night or shld i say damn early today, i completed my skin n put an entry for old time sack. its ok rite? yeah i suppose.

argh. don't ask what i did today. i got wasted. u noe usually in the states, tt means getting drunk beyond the limit n get hung your ass over. but no, not really in this case. Monday blues kicked in and im like THE ball.
the 1st thing when i open my eyes today, i rose from lying position n sat still, for a few mins. thinking thru just what the hell to do for a day like this. now here's the stupid thing. Nothing came to my mind except for...... k nvm abt tt.

i sat in front of my pc, doing the usual routine. u wldnt wanna noe abt it. utter pointless.
and that's that. i spent most of the time here. such disrespect for time. i shld be ashamed of myself. haha.
but recalling back, i did quite a few significant stuffs but i just cldnt remember exactly. k.... that sounded dumb. i noe.

what kind a dumbass do u think i am? of coz i remember what i did.
lonely moments tend to make u recall alot. sigh. i miss my frens. those guys who hv gone to NS. a new phase in life for them. all i wish for is that they are happy doing whatever they are doing rite now.
msn feels weird without ppl whom u often see online. its like an empty space.

.......when is she coming back?......

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

11:42 p.m.

The 1st in 2 months
Monday, June 12, 2006

Im baaaccck..... (irritating tone)
nearly 2 months. this place has become so rusty. even my typing skill. oh well...

just for the record, it's the World Cup season. Alrighhhhttt!!
* loud whistling*
Wo's gonna win this time? England? oh ya talking abt England, they last won it back in 1966. so if they win it, it'll look nice on the record u noe...
"England finally won back the gold after 40 years of struggling their ass off"
yeap. tt'll definately look good on the news stand.

alright. i guess till here it is. im getting really slpy. my eyelids r gaining tons of muscle trying to hold it up. n my head.... ouchh. gotta recuperate. cya guys.. ciAo

dont fly away from me__________; come back to me.

03:22 a.m.